I actually started writing this blog more less a month ago, when the amount of thought is my head started piling up and thereatened with an explosion or steaming from the ears. So I think I will start uploading these notes now, witht he date I wrote them on. It makes a difference, for most of the times the entries refer to specific feelings and impressions I had on a particular day, and even only after a month it feels as if I was entering the mind of another person when I myself get back to them. A 5% experience of personality split. A topic for a separate essay.


Written after coming back from Egypt, around Oct 22nd.



I have left this country only for a week, but waking up today in my small room in Kfar haStudentim felt more awkward than being aroused from Abdullah’s bed with a sound of a drum and a tambourine coming from the nearby school in Cairo. Even a week made me lose my local, or, home-bred, if we consider this place to be my home, habits. I lost my student ID twice, which makes 100% of the times I left the flat today, and the sight of people wearing kipot in the gym was again a little bit peculiar. Only people who have been born here can understand the mechanics of this country and are able to love it wholeheartedly. After having done some (believe me, just a tiny bit) of travelling I can notice how bizarre is this creation called Medinat Israel. When one arrives here from Europe (and I guess from the States too) it feels like something totally different from any ‘western country’ - rudeness and rush with a taste of hummus. But compared to the hustle and an utter craziness of Egypt it appears simply… boring. One can notice features of both – the middle east, and of what came to be called ‘the west’, but the place itself does not belong to any of these cathegories. Maybe that’s why everyone except the Israelis , has mixed feelings towards this country – it can’t be easily classified, or for that matter, it can’t be classified at all, and so it can not be embraced by any of the sides, east west, north south or whichever direction or term you can think of. On the other hand, I think that it doesn’t want to be accepted, maybe it’s to proud of its originality, and simply doesn’t want to abandon any piece of its identity, even for the sake of better relations with ……… (fill in according to the current political situation).